About three weeks ago I brought the roller coaster to an abrupt end. How dare he not answer my phone calls simply because he was with the other woman. I couldn’t beleive my reaction when he did not answer his phone. I thought to myself ” self .. you need help if you feel like you are going to die just because this man is ignoring you and he is with her instead of being with you” So that day was when I had enough of a years long walk in hell. It was odd because it seemed like a couple of days his attention was all on me then wham without warning he dropped me like a hot rock and went ghost on me. After a year of putting up with this I had enough. This had been my third round with a narcissistic man and I was starting to see a pattern in my selection of men that needed urgent correction. God had been there all along urging me to stay far away but it is only now after a year that I am heeding the warning.
It has been a little over three weeks and I have successfully maintained no contact at least contact that I did not initiate. I have seen him at a mutual friends home but this was not my intention to run into him there.
One would think that since this man has been a complete jerk to me that the seperation would be a cakewalk hmmm its been nothing of the sort and this is why the bible says do not join yourself to anyone that does not beleive because being intimate with someone binds you to that person it gets addictive and it is horrible torture to become addicted to a harmful thing in this case being a non beleiver.
Check the video about human evil from one youtuber’s viewpoint. I don’t necessarily agree with the Hillary Clinton or Al Gore remark but I agree with his general sentiment that hater’s just want everyone to be miserable just for the sake of making someone else miserable.
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This website will be my ramblings about narcissism, my relationships with men, and how God has been there to help me through it all.
Tags: Abusive Relationships, Cheaters, dating, Deceiver, God, Liars, Narcissism, Spiritual Warfare
